i'm speculating all kinds of things and they cross my mind
a whole flurry of emotions
and which ones will i grab on to?
i'm looking at photos of my bedside table
and i look at the xanax and think
i need someone who accepts that i like these
and a rolled dollar bill and i don't want another addict
i said i'd never do it
but i wonder, just wonder,
would it make me feel at home??
and i want someone who drinks
but not an alcholic
but what if i'm an alcholic?
can they keep up with me?
what will i be unwrapping
when i finally get to grasping
the human form and skin and body
of someone who's been just a projection
floating in my head?
flashing flashing flashing
slides
what's it feel like
when they come to life?
